Monday, June 29, 2009

Cindy Rowland 1953 - 2009

Ever since I met Cindy in 1977, I have always admired her faith. She has had an unwaivering quality of seriousness and respect for the Lord God that was vibrant and personal, not dull and joyless. Her faith was at once simple and intellectually stimulating. For twenty-six years I have enjoyed having her as a sounding board and true partner to work our way through life issues from the standpoint of faith and scripture. She didn't believe that faith belonged only in the church building or the private prayer closet.

Cindy selflessly worked and invested herself in my success. She beautified our home and made it a special place. Proverbs 31 says "the heart of her husband trusts in her, so he will have no lack of gain. She does him good and not evil, all the days of her life," This is an accurate description of her dealing with me for as long as we have had a covenant commitment to each other.

Cindy loved children and was a child-magnet. She made them feel special and loved to play, tell stories and teach them. A great joy in her life was to have a son, Joseph, a great joy of her life, when she had come to believe she was going to be childless.

She was an avid reader and knew how important reading is for life. She read books and told stories to Joseph and many other children as a homeschool mom and as a participant in library reading programs, successfully instilling a love for literacy in many. She loved mysteries and classics as well as works by those whose had gone through deep waters in their walk with God - Elisabeth Eliot, Amy Carmichael and Corrie ten Boom and others. She also loved works by ones like Francis Schaeffer that challenged our thinking about how God's truth should be worked out in the reality of life and society.

Cindy had a love for disadvantaged people which she showed by her involvement in special education, both as a teacher and volunteer. She also showed this love through other acts of kindness to people in her community. She was motivated by Jesus' words in Matthew 25 that said "as you have done for the least of these... you have done for me."

Having said all that, the last thing Cindy would want is to be "in the limelight". Her name means "Reflector of Light". She viewed herself only in that way - a reflection of her Lord and Savior. No more, no less. Well done, Princess.


The Back Side of the Rainbow - Thoughts on life's struggles by Cindy

This is a compilation of thoughts from Cindy's journal which she always wanted to get presentable (so she could encourage others) as she dealt with the challenges of chemo. She never did get it into shape, but I will do it for her today, in her memory. Cindy continued her habit of journaling as her health allowed. In her last couple of months, she became unable to write cogently or legibly. It was tough for her to lose these abilities, because she was a rich thinker and had beautiful handwriting as her friends would know. As her analogy goes below, there is purpose even when we can't see it. We must learn to trust.

July 10, 2005

I had a thought yesterday. As we were sitting on our porch, a gentle rain was falling. The sun peeked through the clouds. I realized and expressed that we are on the "wrong side of the rainbow." That is, even though you know it is there [if the sun was behind us shining on the rain, we would see a rainbow, but since the sun was coming from the other direction, we couldn't see the reflection, though someone far west on the other side did]. So when I have dealt with cancer, child raising challenges, financial worries, and many "problems", it was hard to see the purpose in it. But we know, because God said so, that there is purpose in it all. His eternal purpose.

July 15, 2005

I am still thinking about being on the wrong side of the rainbow. The unseen realities of heaven's rule -- Hebrews 11:1-3 Amplified: "Now faith is the assurance (the confirmation, the title deed) of the things [we] hope for, being the proof of things [we] do not see and the conviction of their reality - faith perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses. For by [faith], and trust and holy fervor born of faith, the men of old had divine testimony borne to them and obtained a good report. By faith we understand that the world were framed - fashioned, put in order and equipped for the intended purpose - by the word of God, so that what we see was not made out of things which are visible."

So again, coming back to being on the wrong side of the rainbow, you realize it is an analogy to many things. God's rule - unseen but true, His creation - which many say evolved because they depend on what they see, God's purposes - because suffering isn't without purpose, it has eternal (unseen) purpose. 2 Corinthians 4:18 Amplified: "Since we consider and look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen, for the things that are visible are temporal (brief and fleeting) but the things that are invisible are deathless and everlasting."

The rainbow is mentioned often when the throne of God is mentioned, so I know it has special significance. But right now with my little mind I am reminded of the eternal, the rule of God and His purposes.

Ezekiel 1:28 describes the glory of the Lord as a rainbow.

July 21, 2005

This morning it dawned on me that faith is more of a clear comparison "on the back side of the rainbow." We live by faith. Hebrews 11:1 - but as usual, I had already said that the last time (July 15) I wrote, but I forgot. It took several days to cement in my mind, I guess.




Cindy Taunton Rowland was born July 29, 1953 in El Dorado. She left this life June 28, 2009. Cindy was diagnosed with cancer in 2004 and she sought to bring joy, hope and encouragement to others even as she fought the disease in the following years. She was a woman of faith and a follower of Jesus Christ. She was a homemaker and member of Caledonia Baptist Church. She loved her own family and her church family very much. Cindy also had a love for disadvantaged people which she showed by her involvement in special education and through other acts of kindness to people in her community.

She was preceded in death by her father and mother, L.A. and Eva Taunton, as well as a brother, Eddie Taunton, for whom she had a special love. She leaves behind husband John Rowland, of Junction City, son Joseph Rowland, of Conway, brothers Tommy Taunton and wife Inez , of Strong, Paul Taunton and wife Geneva of Camden, sisters Alice Halfacre and husband Bill of Bull Shoals, Betty Kelly and husband Alvin of Junction City, and Ann Bearden and husband Jim of Anna, Texas, along with many nieces and nephews and a great host of friends. She will be greatly missed.

She will be remembered Friday, July 3, 10:00 a.m. at Caledonia Baptist Church, 2192 Wingfield Lake Road, El Dorado. Burial will follow at the Caledonia Cemetery. Caledonia Baptist Church is located south of El Dorado at the intersection of Wingfield Lake Road (Boy Scout Camp Road) and Caledonia Road.

In lieu of flowers, donations may be given to Caledonia Baptist Church, 2192 Wingfield Lake Road, El Dorado AR 71730 or Hospice of Caring Hearts, 463 Pea Ridge Road, Dubach LA 71235.

Links:

Funeral Home Register
Photos of Cindy
Other Cindy links since cancer

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8 comments:

  1. John-
    As the tears stream down my face, I think of sitting in an auditorium listening to Handel's "Messiah" with Cindy. We turned to each other and we praised God for the Savior who was born unto US. Cindy's faith was and is and always will be an inspiration to me...to personalize, to dig deeper, to believe.

    I miss her so. It is a comfort to know she is sitting at the feet of HER Savior.

    I hurt for you and Joseph.
    Jan

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  2. I was a young Christian when I met Cindy.Newly Married. She gave me mach good advice on marriage and later on, motherhood. She was instrumental in my decision to homeschool all my children. When we came back from

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  3. John,

    I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Cindy has always been an excellent example of how to serve Christ, and I rejoice in the great span of time you two had together. Thanks for this blog, which I would like to have found earlier.

    Sean Dwyer

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  4. She was an amazing woman of God and an inspiration to me!!!

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  5. Hi, John: You may not remember me. I met Cindy and later you at the church that your congregation started from Kansas. I witnessed your relationship with Cindy blossomed into engagement and later marriage in that brief period when I used to go to your church and be fully involved in the ministry.
    I am from Taiwan. I brought my mother to the Sunday worship one Sunday when she came to visit me from Taiwan for 3 months.
    Cindy was very generous in sharing her faith and spiritual experiences with me. She even gave me a dining table which I later shared with an IU student.
    She also gave me a Gospel track that was about her and how she came to believe in Jesus Christ. It was a moving story.

    I will always remember her and her sweet spirit.

    Her news was passed on to me from Karla who, along with her husband are now members of Emmanual Baptist Church of which I am also a member.

    I now teach at IU; also am involved in a Chinese Christian church that was established two years ago in Bloomington, Indiana.

    WIll pray for you and Joseph--what a blessing from the Lord to you and Cindy. Your blog is very helpful in allowing me to reconnect with you and with the church community way back when.

    --Joanne Peng

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  6. JoAnn,

    Of course I remember you and your Mom. Thanks for writing. Cindy loved to get to know you and several other Chinese students, as well. She had a unique ability to not let any "barriers" keep her from getting to know people. She wanted to be a uniter, even in her death. I think God is answering her prayers.

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  7. Dear John,
    I am so sad to hear of your loss of Cindy in the physical way, however, you have her with you in spirit..I can tell this for sure.
    I want to write you here and if you choose to share it with your son or others, that is fine.

    What I remember about Cindy is just as you described in so many ways. We were neighbors and friends for a short time in that physical way, but just as her spirit is strong within your heart, I remember her still so clearly and vividly. I remember her smile and bright eyes and her willingness to be my friend. We shared our desire to homeschool our children and were doing this in the early days and it was a time when there was little if any support. Cindy was my sister in Christ and she gave me hope and encouragement and ideas too! Although I never felt that I was nearly as good at being a teacher as Cindy, she always made me feel that it was because I had a little more on my plate at the time and she could focus on her son and that I should not be too hard on myself. I remember her love for Jesus and although we didn't attend the same "church," we both knew that Jesus was our Lord and Savior.
    It was hard when you all moved away. I knew I had sorta lost some of that support, but I knew I had gained some inspiration and grace to go on. I don't know if she ever knew, but all of the children were homeschooled almost all of the way through with the exception of our son who just finished a year in a Christian high school..it was only because he knew no one else male that was close at all in age and it was very difficult for him to focus, but still I know it was partly due to Cindy that I was able to keep going...several people did that for me...and I still thank her in my heart.

    I was so inspired by her dedication to the members or your family in their different struggles and illnesses and I know she loved you and your son with every beat of her heart. I always knew we'd hear from you all at Christmas too and I felt so moved that you all took the time to wish us a blessing at that time of the year.

    I just came home from the funeral of another friend who was a parishoner at St. Charles and brother in Christ...he too was/is a good soul and he has good company up there with the soul and spirit of Cindy around! I feel even more happy for him now. :)

    You've written much beauty about your wife and dear friend and now you must go on..I am sure you and your son each have the wonderful spirit of Christ in your hearts and I know that you also have a part of Cindy. Keep her going in this world, for this world needs that.

    God bless you both and I will keep you in my prayers. In the Sacred Heart of Jesus, Suzanne McConnell
    PS Danny forwarded this to me and he wants me to tell you that he will pray for you all too. Take care.

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  8. Mr. John... I've been thinking of Mrs. Cindy this week as her birthday comes around. Just wanted to comment on the fact that she's spending her first birthday in heaven with our Lord! There's no better way to spend it!

    Continuing to keep you and Joseph in my prayers. Love you!

    ~Rachelle

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